Its been so long!!

Wow time has really gotten away from me and I have not blogged in such a long time! We turned off our internet at home to help save money for our next adventure! Not to long ago Matt got orders to Germany!!! We are so excited to move to Germany but have so much to get done before then. We are scheduled to leave no later then September 30th. As many of you know by now we are also pregnant with identical twin girls!! We are so very excited and elated. Noah will be a busy big brother to say the least. At the moment we are having some complications with the twins. They have whats called twin to twin transfussion. (http://childrens.memorialhermann.org/texas-fetal-center/ttts-surgery/) <---if you would like to read a little bit about the syndrome. Basically one twin is taking more blood from the other twin. This is obviously dangerous for both twins and we have had to make some challenging decisions. Right now we are currently in Houston being seen by some of the best physicans trying to decied when to have surgery. The surgery comes with major risks so the want to make sure that its worth it before putting the babies lives in further danger. They do lots and lots and lots and lots of fun crazy ultrasounds to determin how much fetal distress the babies are under. Then they rate you from 1-3. 1=babies are stressed but they are still doing well and they dont need the surgery at this time. 2=Prime time for surgery. They are stressed but have the best survival chance at this stage when doing the surgery. 3=The most critical time for you babies and you need surgery imediatly to help save there lives. This stage you dont want to be in because the sucess of the surgery is a lot lower considering the babies are very stressed and you put them under more stress. Right now we fall in between a 1 and 2. That was as of Monday. Today is thursday and we go back to see if im progressing into the 2 stage, or if im staying about the same, or im degressing wich would be amazing!! If i have progressed into a 2 we go ahead with the surgery. If i am kinda the same we get to go home and i will see a specialist in abilene 3 times a week. It has been challenging to hear the risks and complications but we know in the end its all in Heavenly Fathers hand. I am so greatfull for the testimony I have of Christ. I know that this life is only temporary and we are supposed to face challenges and trials. Some may seem simple and some may seem so difficult we cant bare them. The trial as of late has seemed umberable at times. To think about losing one or both of these precious angels is umberable to think about. Yeasterday matt and i went to the Houston Temple and it was so peacful and humbling. I feel at times satan trys to whisper in our ear that life is tuff and if we follow him he can make things better. He trys to tempt us into anything when we are at our weakest point. Im greatful that our Father in Heaven knows and understands me personally and helps to keep my mind focused and straight on the path. While at the Temple i felt so comforted that no matter what happened we would be okay. That even threw our tuffist moments He will not leave my side. That He loves me so much. Life is hard but its not ment to be a cake walk. Im greatful for my trials but im also greatful for the calm in my life as well. Im happy to have such a strong supprotive husband who has allowed me to express my frustrations, fears, and tears. He has truly been a sholder I can lean on. Im also greatful for all of our wonderful friends, family, and church members who have graciously stood up and said how can we help? what can we do? Even though we are going threw this difficult time I have truly been blessed. I hope next time I write I can bring better news. As of now we are waiting to see how things pan out. We love each of you very much and hope things are going well at this time for you. Always remeber that you are a son/daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves you personally and knows you personally. Always look for blessing threw your trial and I promise He will help you threw them.

Its true....Hes my love...and im happy its for all ETERNITY!!!

I cant express how much I love being a mom! Its true that being a mother is the most rewarding job! Its also can be hard at times but for me I have LOVED every minute of it!! Noah has changed me in so many way and has helped me become a better mom and person! My love for him was instant! I remember when I had my c-section and I couldn't see him at first but I heard him cry and it was the best sound in the world!! My heart jumps, hops, skips, and warms when I think about it! Its a cry like any other and I can still hear it in my head when I think about it! He is the most amazing kid in the world and has surprised me every day with something new he says or does! I'm so happy that he is mine for all eternity!! I love you Noah Bird!!

Hospitals stink....

My sweet bug was not doing well in august :( Noah got sick and started having seizures. For anyone who has experienced this knows how miserable it is! I felt so awful and like a horrible mother that this had happened to my baby! It was so scary and not fun at all! The first time it happened to us NOah had two seizures one after another. I was so scared and did not know what to do so we ended up calling 911. They ended up taking him to the hospital and we had no help from doctors there just a 6 hour wait!!! The next morning Noah saw his sweet doctor and said Noah had a vi ruse that caused his temp to sore high very quickly and that's what had caused him to seize. He started to do much better and then a week later was back to being sick. He had another seizure and was not getting any better so the doctor had us bring him in again. He was admitted and thank the high Heavens has not been sick since then!! He is doing so much better and is a happy little boy again!!
Im not sure who this baby is but I can promise this is not how my sweet boy acts!!


Napping on daddy!! I love these two!


The next day and pumped with tons of fluid later....


Wanting to escape after starting to feel better


The thing he does best...play with toys!!


His favorite past time...playing with daddy!!




Saying mmmmhhhmmm after taking a bite of pizza!! The doctor brought him some after he found out it was his favorite food!!

Everything is better with JUICE!

I let Noah have juice for the first time at the begining of august! He loved it and I had to take the bottle away so he would eat dinner that night! My baby is growing and changing and I just cant believe it!!

I love the Gospel

Last night I went to our Relief Society activity at church. It was about parenting, grand parenting, & strengthening families. I love the advice I get when I attend church activities especially when I feel its aimed at me! I have been struggling with Noah lately, he is getting bigger and changing, growing, and becoming very independent! I love him so much and to be honest the struggles had nothing to do with him. It was me. I felt that I was a horrible mother and that everyone else raised kids perfectly or did things so much better then I did. Then last night I realized it was not just me!! A sweet sister who is a single mom of 2 opened my eyes and I felt her testimony helped me grow! This sister is so amazing and she never complains about life's situations. She always has a smile on her face and her kids are the sweetest kids! She talked a bit about parenting and how dear it was to her heart and shared a video that was made by the church. I went and looked up the talk and read it that night.("Because she is a mother" by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland) I had to stop several times so I could brush the tears from my eyes to keep on reading. I felt as if the talk was written for me. I love feelings and moments like this. They are moments when I feel my Heavenly Father picking me up dusting me off and saying "I love you so very much, I am here with you every step of the way, so lets keep going!" I'm so grateful for this lesson I learned and I'm so very grateful for the Gospel. I love the knowledge I have that im not doing this alone. That I may be imperfect but with faith and Heavenly Father by my side he can help me to become the perfect me!
I love you Noah!

Summer Vacation 2011

For the 4th of July we decided to get out of town and have a little fun!! My brother was with us so we decided we would make it a fun weekend and go to San Antonio! We did so many things and it was so much fun to get out of town for almost a full week!! Here are the pictures of all the fun!!

It started out with six flags(sorry these are out of order)....

Before we went to six flags I snaped some cute photos of bug playing in the hotel!!

















Noah and I spent a lot of time in this little water park in six flags!! It was awesome to cool off!!






















The best part of this trip was that we won another trip to any six flags along with any water park affilated with that six flags and hotel and everything included!!

One evening we decided we wanted to hang out at the alamo and river walk! It was a blast!! I have herd about both but never had the oppertunity to go! I absolutly loved the atmosphere and it was a really fun evening!!
These are of us at the alamo!














This is the worlds tallest man! He is no longer living. We wanted to go down to the River walk so we didnt tour the Ripleys Musems. Next time though!!


These are down at the river walk. We went on one of the boat tours and it was really interesting to hear about the history of the river walk. I learned a lot and didnt realize how much historical and fun facts there were!!




















I was trying to get a picture of the building and flag it was absolutly breath taking at night but not great for pictures.


The next day we hung out at our hotel wich was a blast and honestly I recomend those who stay in San Antonio to stay at the Drury Inn and Suites! They were absolutly amazing and our hotel was close to EVERYTHING!!!! Then it was on to Sea World!! Noah had a blast watching the shows!!


















I loved how Noah thought the shows were so magical!! He even would clap and scream wahhooo!!! It was so darn cute!!



















We all had a blast at sea world and I loved how much Noah loved sea world!!